Foolish&Hungry

    May be I'm a born-nature loser on love, I did everything which
was told to me by that love winners, pure-hearted,brave,persistant to
goal...... But what I get,the first girl found a bad boy as her boyfriend
 after my four years pursing,I felt heart broke;then I met a girl with so
matched characters to me,but unfortunately,she had a boyfriend at that time
,I had the  impulsion to pursue her,but gave up for some self-condemned;
    Now, I met a girl at the begining of my postgraduate entrance,a beauty,some
stories happend,I liked her secretly,but this time, I have had no confidence
to pursue , I have tired for the arrangement of the God, I even think I am going to be
lonely.But I met the chance to help her on study and intern-hunting,I thought
the love-god not forget me ,so I held the hope to action again,until this summer
this Olymic Games.
    One day, we talked about this Games with pity,for we all have no ticket,I made a
decision I would try my best to get some tickets to eliminate our regret.I search the
webs every day to ask for tickets.Where there is a will, there is a way.I got two
tickets on August 8th,2008,the kick of day of the Game,on 11 times value of the real
price.
    Today, I told her this surprise,I thought she would accept it happily,however,I'm
wrong again,she refused in a short time.
    What can I say,so deeply hurt,I ,I'm just a loser...

Waitting is the hardest thing for me now.
Waitting for the result of the  intern recruitment examination,
Waitting for one girl's feeling
Waitting for my dream's coming true
The most importmant is,except waitting,I have nothing can do.
But to my history experience, waitting is one important ability
to achieve success.No patient, no real chance to win 

Some weeks before on one Sunday, CC came to Beijing to see Yuanyuan;Of course,he saw me too.(What a coincidence!I sent one short message to Yuan to
say hello and then knew my best friend has come).
We met at Wang Fujing street and had lunch together there.CC pay for the bill.
I talked to him what I thought about my decision to give up the chance to intern in Japan and my new career goal.He gave me some
valuable suggestions that  show his maturing on life.I caught it firmly.

I'm a single one, so I have more time to thinking about what is love and how
it should be.But unfortunately, I still cann't find one specific answer,only
find that sometimes it should be this:
Just love,and do everything you can for lover,never for  return!
I don't know whether I will have a girl that loves me much one day,but I do believe
that when I love, the best Happyness Feeling is just like sometimes it should be :
just pay whether or not have return!  

I have no doubt with my goal, and I have no doubt with my ability.
Crazy congfidence is so important to us in this times, wonder is always created by this people.
So what I should do is just give one chance to myself,and try my best to catch my dream.
Without doubt,I am the winner finally!